I'm lost without you

In Loving Memory

2005-03-03T16:17:00.000-08:00

"In Loving Memory"

Thanks for all you've done
I've missed you for so long
I can't believe you're gone
You still live in me
I feel you in the wind
You guide me constantly

I've never knew what it was to be alone, no
Cause you were always there for me
You were always there waiting
And ill come home and
I miss your face soSmiling down on me
I close my eyes to see
And I know, you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me

carry the things that remind me of you
In loving memory of
The one that was so true
Your were as kind as you could be
And even though you're gone
You still mean the world to me

I've never knew what it was to be alone, no
Cause you were always there for me
You were always there waiting
But now I come home and it's not the same, no
It feels empty and alone
I can't believe you're gone

And I know, you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me

I'm glad he set you free from sorrow
I'll still love you more tomorrow
And you will be here with me still

And what you did you did with feeling
And You always found the meaning
And you always will
And you always will
And you always will

Ooo's

And I know, you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while
I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me

3 months

2005-02-17T22:17:00.000-08:00

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YOU KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU
YOU KNOW THAT I WANT TO
KNOW YOU SO MUCH MORE
MORE THAN I HAVE BEFORE

THESE WORDS ARE
FROM MY HEART
THESE WORDS ARE
NOT MADE UP
I WILL LIVE FOR YOU
I AM DEVOTED TO YOU

3MONTHS! MORE TO COME! I LOVE YOU!

Forgotten on Valentine's day.... what a gift!

2005-02-14T18:17:00.000-08:00

Well...Firstly Happy Valentine's day to all!
Eh... today didn't even go well! it wasn't alright... i mean its just everything went wrong today!! whats happening to me?! Anyways today the whole day was screwed! i really feel like hell now! Maybe its because of what you have done to me! i went all the way down just to see you today and i could not believe this is what you have done to me... especially on a day like this!I really hope you are happy with what ya have and what you have done to me!
I realised the way you have been treating me is like Dunk(i'm sorry) but it is... well you're probably just using me for what i have... dont do that it just stinks!Use your friends and see what they'll do to you in return!$ 70 bucks is a great sum of money to me and i was glad on spending it on you... but it turned out wasted! i wasn't even recognized by you.... hmm....guess i've been forgotten... not just now... but long ago!
I'd thought it'll be fun with you today but everything just got screwed! why? because its me... everything that has to do with me= screwed! now you know what i am!
i don't know what to say now... but whatever it is i dont want my cash back from ya... keep it... hope ya like the thing i got ya!thanks for the gift!.... do what you want... if you think treating me like that will help continue and go ahead.... no matter what i still love you! I'm sorry

I carry the things that remind me of you
In loving memory of
The one that was so true
Your were as kind as you could be
And even though you're gone
You still mean the world to me

Happy Valentine's Day
Do what you want

Out of place

2005-02-13T21:30:00.000-08:00

Well this seriously ain't fun at all... i feel so out of place when i'm around you people... the friendship that we had i thought it would last but i guess we're just drifting apart further and further by the day...I just thougt that it would not end up this way... I really want it to last but if it can't i guess we're just not meant to be... i should get out of the group and life would be much better for all you people! i mean i just make things worst...so in order to reduce stuff this would reduce it by loads! the time i had with you people made it so worth while for me to live to see the next day! for knowing the true meaning of friendship and what great family i have in you guys! I will always remember you guys forever and you people will still be me bros and sis i love you people, but i guess what i have to do would just make things better! i mean me being there doesnt serve any purpose.... i'll see you soon take care!............... I'll miss you guys and i'll always be here whenever you would need me... i'm just a call away! ...

So I held my head up high
Hiding hate that burns inside
Which only fuels their selfish pride

There's more left on my mind...
Its enough for a day
nites!

...Nothing much

2005-02-12T13:36:00.000-08:00

Eh... Monkey Nuts... i'm back after awhile!
Anyways these few weeks and yeah just pretty caught up with loads of stuff i guess. plus trying to get used to sec3 life! darn! is it stressing!
I didn't know i'd feel like this.... unwanted and left alone... i did not know you would do this to me.... hiding your stuff away from me... i didn't know things would end up this way... i'm glad things are going back together and the peices of this big picture would get into its place i really hope that what happened wont ever happen again.......
I dont have much to say so i'll just leave it as it is... see ya around i guess

If you want me to wait
I will wait for you
If you tell me to stay
I would stay right through
If you don't want to say
Anything at all
I'm happy wondering....

see ya!

???

2005-02-01T22:20:00.000-08:00

Hey smelly!
okie firstly HAPPY BIRTHDAY NICK(GINA)!
Anways... well today wasn't that bad... everything just went okie... things started to change during school.... many things went in and out of my head constantly repeating itself over and over again!blah! i did not know we would end up like this... things that has happened made it so obvious that you wanted something else... anways! i slept almost the whole day in class... sleeping: the only way i can escape reality...blah! anyways! i thought about what you said and yeah things do make sense.... his intenions and how you feel co-incide so well that its just unbelivably true to me! i thought of what you said.... the consequences that could be obtained... it all flashed in my mind... i did not understand why but it happened!
I could not concentrate too well today but i tried to shut all thoughts out of my head.... what i hope now is that you will be happy! for me just to see you happy means everything to me! all i hope is that you would know who to choose when it comes to the final judgement and all the things you have said were to be true instead of just trying to please me all the time... it doesn't help a bit just to please me when its not the thing that you want to do! the things that you told me made me think alot! and yeah! i really hope GOD would give you the strength to let me go! in life you can only have one! so choose! no matter what the outcome is i'll always love you no matter what! i'm still always going to be here whenever you would need me i'll stand by you!
I hope you think of this.... i have alot more to say! but this is all i am going to say for now! in the mean time... take it easy! and calm down! i still am going to be here for you! take care!

Smile an everlasting smile
A smile could bring you near to me
Don't ever let me find you gone
Cause that will bring a tear to me

take care always! sleep tight! i've had enough for a day

screwed!

2005-01-27T20:50:00.000-08:00

Eh... PIGS!
Well today was kinda sucky for me... well things happened today... blah!
Well school today was kinda okie... and yeah ! it happened after school... argh!
....Well first of all HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMANDA!
Uhuh! Well eh... i was waiting for jonita to call me at 1:50pm after school... and yeah she called me late!blah!,... nevermind... what to do they are girls... dooie!Anyways.. yupps! while waiting for her to end i went looking for me buddy matt! and yeah he had remedial.. so yupp!And yeah! while waiting... i went to play soccer for abit before going back home! yeah!
at home i waitied for jonita's call and yeah.. i then went to sleep..... blah!... i'm just a usual piggie! blah!... anyways... jonita then called me and yeah asked me to go to her friend's place.... eh.. i think her name's tiara( sorry if i did not get it right).. well i was kinda reluctant to go in the first place yeah as i felt so out of place... as in i did not know anyone there and i'm going to someone's house... gosh! i dont even know who the person is.... Well it was just chaos in the house... yups... i was the only guy there too! uhuh!.. there were like loads of girls here.... eh.... jonita.lynette.guan lin.christelle.evie.mazin.tiara.and another girl that i do not know.... curse here and there with her cheena language!blah! eh.. yeah... i then left at 5:45 and headed home for dinner then i left for tution blah!.... yeah well... today just isn't so good yeah... anyways... take care! see ya soon! catch ya later
my new band's name is..... Drowning In Silence uhuh!

If i had just one wish
Only one demand
I hope he's not like me
I hope he understands
That he can take this life
And hold it by the hand
And he can greet the world
With arms wide open...

catch ya soon dudes! take care
i'm out!

back again....

2005-01-26T07:38:00.000-08:00

Ah!... piggies from another land...
Well my bad that i have not been updating this blog thingy here! yeah i'm just really caught up with loads of stuff lately...i'm sorry!blah!uhuh! well today really wasn't that great... yeah the only thing good was that my form teacher did not come to school!blah!....
Anyways.... well... i have been caught up with hell loads of crap and stuff to think about... yeah gettin into fights and sh** like that!uhuh! well i'm sorry you guys but i ain't have that much to say....
All i have to say is...this triangle of mine stinks so bad!boo! and yeah.... choose who you want!you cab't have both....

Well i don't know if i'm ready
To be the man i have to be
I'l take a breathe, I'll take her by my side
We stand in awe, we've created life

Well catch ya soon pigs! till then ... i'm out!

2 MONTHS!

2005-01-17T15:17:00.000-08:00

Hey ya mates!
Alright anyways... cut the story short! blah! today's the day jonita and i become 2 months... today's the day my mom goes to KL(kuala lumpur) ... todays the day my grandmother goes to hospital and todays the day everything doesn't turn out right!blah!
Well so far everythings planed and it went out according to plan until i recieved the sms: i cannot meet you! blah! how heart broken i was and sad.. i mean its 2 months and theres nothing to do! blah!darn!alright...anways! my 3 hour tution also got canceld! why me?!! why this nonsensical stuff has to happen on the right day?blah!... well day just got screwed and i really don't wish for it to get worst! i hope! blah!
I love you! i miss you!
HAPPY 2 MONTHS!!!.... lets have more!
i really hope to see ya really soon.... i'm dying here!

Where i laid and told you
But you sweared you love me more

Do you care if i don't know what to say
Will you sleep tonight or will you think of me
Should i shake this up and pretend its all okay
That there's someone out there who feels just like me there is...

I love you!

What happened on the 11th!

2005-01-14T06:44:00.000-08:00

Boo!
sorry i have not updated in abit! blah!.... this is what happened on tuesday! i remembered it as it sucked! blah!
Well today is tuesday? and yeah as usual ... had me breakfast eh.... cookies?.... and milo? oh i took a bath and washed up too! and left for school.....
Well after school i went with ryan to get his drum set and yeah we went to town!blah! and yeah! met his godmother...and his mom! riight! we then went to swee lee at bras basah complex! blah! yup i saw 2 guitars that i wanted to get one not confirmed if i gettin the other is i guess! one is a gibson les paul that cost $2450 smacks! ouch! going to hurt if i pay for this .. so i am not sure if i am going to get this new guitar of mine! its a damm nice guitar ... the one slash uses! blah! super sexy!okie!!! well the other one is a epiphone les paul that cost $900... yeah! i might get either one for me b'day! woohoooo! i can't wait! blah!... Well it was 4 plus when i had to leave for tution! on the way back a call came and it was my mom! sh**! she started scolding me ! arrrgh! same old nonsense everyday! don't know what they see that they always scold.... when i was sick i also got scolded!blah!uhuh! i then headed for some chinese tution!blah! improve on it and learn to speak it properly haha..... ni hen smelly.... thats what i have learnt so far blah! still kinda sexy! blah!
Well i then went tution for like 2 hours and when i got back... more scolding and stuff like that! blah! same old rubbish! anyways! it was just a bad day! plus jonita was not there! could not talk to her as she was at camp!blah! what a screwed day!
Anyways i just want to sleep and go to lala land for the day! GIVE ME MY VISA !!!!!!okie boo! smell you later!...... blah! uhuh!

Your falling back to me
The star that i can't see.... yeah....
I know you're out there somewhere out there
Your falling out of reach
Defying gravity.... yeah....
I know your out there somewhere out there

okie... blah! i got my visa to lala land! yups! 3 days left! phew weeeeet!

1 week!!!

2005-01-10T15:45:00.000-08:00

Hey monchichees! okie dokie... do hokie pokie now!
Well i woke up at about 6:15 am and then i immediately went to call my baby to say my good bye and stuff... yups! well we talked till about 6:30am and then we put down the phone....
After that i went to take a bath and i had breakfast! blah! i did not have any cookies and milk today!!! blah! nnnnnnnoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo! anways i had char siew pau! i think thats how you spell it.... Uhuh! blah!... Well after breakfast i left for school! dooie
School was madnessly boring... tell me about it! its the same old sh** everyday! blah! i'm going to kill the A$% that made school! blah!.. watch out.. i know where you live...! blah!okie after school it was pissig with rain! dooie! i think eh... god was pissing on us as usual ... And yeah i walked back in the rain with ryan......
While walking... some loser of a truk driver came and he sprayed water on the bottom half of my body!... what a loser! Well so the rain was madness! and yeah i walked back drenched everything was see through! blah! Well no worries!
Alright when i got back i took off my shirt and dried myself up with a towel! blah! i then had a bath and now i'm updating this thingy here! blah!
Well i gotta go now! having 3 hour tution from 7:30pm till 10:30pm... catch ya later al-stinkies!..
blah!.... take care! see you around.....
7 days left!

Last time i talked to you
You were lonely and out of place
You were looking down on me
Lost out in space

Laid underneath the stars
Strung out and feeling brave
Watch the riddles glow
Watch them float away

Well gotta run...i miss you!
i'm out!

1 week!!!

2005-01-09T23:33:00.000-08:00

You made my day

2005-01-09T22:17:00.000-08:00

Haha! Piggies!
Well what happened today was that i woke up at about 10:30 and i forgot that i had to go for mass at holy family church! the best church ever!blah!Well since i was late, i skipped me breakfast and in the end i still ended up being late for mass! darn!...
Well after mass, we had a PTS meeting that was from 12:30pm till 2pm before we broke for lunch! Well during the meeting , we( pts team) discussed about what happened during pts, what could be done and what were the things that went wrong and what were the things that went right... uhuh! yupps! Well we are still in the planning for the next pts! and you guys better come!!!! alright?! Well those who did pts last year are going to do it again! dooie! so if you guys would come and join us in prasing the lord thru song! please!
Well after the meeting,eh.. matthew, aggassiz, melinda, amanda, trina, nick, lynette and myself went for lunch and we all headed to yoshinoya at parkway! since aggasiz and i were sick of the food there, we decided to go to the food court and take back to food to yoshinoya to eat!... agga had some funny meal that i did not know what ya call it and i had beef ball noodle!blah! it was one of the great meals that i have had in quite a while... Yups! after lunch ... melinda, matthew and myslef stayed back at yoshinoya to doodle and draw on melinda's book while the rest.... went to giordano to get shirts for their camp which is going to happen tomrrow 10thja 2005... Well everyone there could not make up their minds if they wanted to go meet jonita and so no one did... i was disappointed... blah! i was suppose to meet her after mass but in the end it got canceled... darn! so anticlimax!dooie!
Well we left parkway at about 4pm and melinda , amanda and lynette went to lynette's house, aggassiz went to meet sabrina, nick went home, trina went home too and matt went to town! since i had no where to go, i went home!blah! melinda, lynette amanda and i then went and took bus number 12 and we stopped at our various loactions, well on the way back, we met andrew and lyanna on board the bus and we were watching some crap tsunami show on channel news asia which was broadcasting live at the singapore expo... some memorial rubbish ... practically a waste of time....

SILENCE...... IN MEMORY OF THE TSUNAMI PEOPLE!!.............................

Well i then got home and ate me dinner, took a shower and what i needed to do! at about 8pm i was so happy that i could meet jonita!!!!! i went over to her place to pass her my sleeping bag and my pull over that she wanted to bring along for camp! I stayed there till about 8:30pm and then i went home!!!.......... blah! i wished i could have stayed longer with her.... till about...............FOREVER!!!...............
I then went home, watched some t.v(the box you stare at and watch pictures go back and forth) yeah.. blah!.. yups! and then i went up to me room to talk to jonita and nette.... well we talked till about 12 and then they put down the phone!!! leaveing me alone... blah!... Well i was worried as i thought they wont just put down without saying bye!...... Well today kind of turned out alright.. especially when i met jonita! foooyo... she made my day!!.... thanks BABY! i love her so much and i am going to miss her for 2 and a half days as she'll be at camp!... this means no talking... blah!... Well i am gonna go to lala land now!.... blah! the ticket dude at lala land is some short little man that looks like a pigeon and smells of fart! uhuh!... see ya i bid you nite nite!
8 days to go!...

Every day is a getaway when all of it goes unsaid
I got a holiday a paid holiday
I got a holiday in my head

Nites piggies from gagagoogoo land! smell you later
I'm out!

Wasted

2005-01-08T20:54:00.000-08:00

Hey monchichees!
Okie well today was a wasted day for me! totally was, i was down with high fever with a temperature ranging from 38-39 degree celcius! alright well i woke up at about 11plus and then i had me breakfast and took me medication! blah!
Well after break fast eh... i went to sleep again and then woke up for lunch!...yummy fried rice okie!Anyways after lunch i played me guitar for quite sometime before going of to lala land again! as you can see what i pig i am! anways! I woke up just in time for dinner and after dinner..uhuh!blah! i had hokkien mee thingy which was not bad at all! yups! after dinner i played with me dog for abit then got ready to go to the docs'!
Well when i reached the docs' it was closed! damn it! blah! holy shittles! Well i had to get some medication anways! so i popped by siglap centre ( a dodgey place) well i really wanted to cut my hair and so i did!i dont know how i look like now....
Blah! i then got some panadol and went back home for the day to take a shower and what i had to do! i immediately came online and talked to jonita! i was feeling a whole lot better! Well i'd want to say thanks to those who cared for me today... my mom, dad, bro ( what they have done was a once in a life time)
eh... my baby, my biggie piggie Sis of mine, and caleb( me bro)
Well thanks for the care! Well also in the morning i had bad news and it was about me uncle, he was in critical care in changi hospital and in the next 24hours if he doesn't make it he would be gone! i really pray and hope he pulls through to live for many years to come! Amen!
Well and now i'm going off now monchichees from fart land! take care... nite nite!

While she wishes she
Was a dancer
And that she'd never
Heard of cancer
She wishes God would give her
Some answers
And make her feel beautiful

Please try not to break your promises, it is disappointing.... anticlimax! blah!
Nites
i'm out!

What is wrong with me

2005-01-08T11:30:00.000-08:00

Well i guess you did not want to let me see what it was. Well after reading it i felt bad about myself, i felt you wanted to let go! i have told you if ya want to just go ahead, as long as your happy i'mm fine with it.I've read what you have got to say and everything is all my fault and i'm all to blame here! Well you have to make up your mind with your decision... And tell me what it would be! life would be so different without you, i don't want to let you go! but if you want to please go ahead! things would just get worst!This year things are going great so far! its been great! but after what has happened to me it will always remain a scar in my life that would never be erased. I'm sorry that you have to go throught sh** please i intended on breaking cos i did not want you to suffer with me! it just sucks! please don't go thorugh this with me... i'll be fine alone! besides now having a high fever of 38 degress to 39 degrees it just getting worst! i dreamt something that i should not say as i dont want it to happen! if i have to leave this place, i will leave knowing that my whole life was a screw up!i guess that i would just be watching you from whereever i am... I'm sorry but i don't deserve the kind of treatment that you are giving me! i have been saying this over and over again as i really think i don't deserve anything at all... Maybe my life is just an experiment! and its going to end soon! You deserve more than what i give... please i don't want you to live the life i have please...
What has been happening so far just stinks and its time that we make our decision. I dont want you here to suffer with me, all i ask is for you to be happy with you life and to not worry so much you'll just get worst... Well right now i think its studies first unless you can cope with what is happening.uhuh! Well you make the cut the ball is in your court now! i just can't ever forgive myself for what i have done to you! and i never am going to. Please take care of yourself and don't worry for me! you deserve more than what i have to offer... and i don't want you to suffer with me! criticism is one thing... its how you take it and look at it from another point.Please don't do this to yourself! you deserve more than what i give. find another that can and i assure you life would be great for you! i love you! And i'm sorry! I dont want this to happen

i'm here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
i think about you baby
and i dream about you all the time

i love you!
i'm out!

I have been waiting

2005-01-07T19:41:00.000-08:00

Ha! i see you pigs from venus again!blah! anyways... this is what happened today!Dooie!

Alrighty mates...Well ah!... this morning was cold.... arrgh! think its because i'm down with fever? i dont feel too good..... i wanna barf in your face!!!Riight!
Well usual stuff i woke up, had me breakfast... something to do with cookies and milk as usual... but not what i have had before uhuh!Riight well i woke up late and left late!ofcourse!... well blah! i had to run into school! haha! anways school was kinda alright except for history period.... 3 whole periods of history... madnessly boring.. could die anytime.. blah! and a brother was teaching me.! ah! he looked kinda evil and he likes to say" if you dont do your homework i'll punch you in the face" riight.... well not sure what he'll do.. well he looks like one scary person when he's angry like he can strike you with lightning of some crap like that!... voodooo hell! anways! luckily it was only reduced to 2 periods thanks to the announcement made! haha!blah! saved me from death! well after school i went home and took a bath plus change to me scout uniform!arrgh! scouts the one of the many things i hate!you pigs know it! well scouts ended at aout 4 and it was a meeting about what we are going to do this year plus the stuff we have to change...etc..etc.... overall a bunch a bull thats what i have to say! a-ha!
Well jonita was supposed to meet me at 6pm but in the end she could not meet me argh! wasted me time waiting for 2 hours! well anways please dont say sorry! as you know you are always forgiven! and i love ya baby!dooie!Well nah! no worries mate! well when i left i went to the bus stop and coincidentally i met joanna and me biggie piggie sis(melinda) anways me mom called me and she said she could pick me up from the bus stop, thus, saving me a money! oh we then sent joanna and me sis home! and after that i went home? and took a bath and had dinner? riight and blah! its good to have a 5 day work week as tomorrow i dont need to wake up early! but one things bad!.... school ends really late!arrgh!and yeah! well i am feeling sick! arh! kinda dodgey at the moment but yeah gotta update this thing if not PEOPLE will make noise blah!dooie! Well now i think i am gonna go to lala land as i am drifting off into it now and yeah my head keeps on banging into the table! wahh why am i clumsy?!!! see ya later! pigsters! Sis thanks again! JoNiTa i love you!Nites... ya owe me nothing... i'm sorry

Oh they tell me there's a place over yonder,
cool water running through the burning sand,
until we we learn to love oneanother
we never reach the promise land.

Clumsyness is my speacialty i think? why? argh! blah! well milk and cookies! yum!

gotta go sleep tight dudes! nites!

Uncle?

2005-01-06T15:17:00.000-08:00

hey again! blah!
Argh! i did not sleep well last night.... i think its because i knocked my head on the table!! ouch! anyway you guys know how clumsy i am hence the nick name clumsy pig!dooie! well i had waffles and ice-cream for breakfast! yummy! ice-cream!.......mhmm.... yups
Well,
Anyways well today is an alright day's an alright day so far... erm well...out of 10 periods of studies, 5 of them were free period(excluding reccess) uhuh! yups! well there were loads of teachers who reliefed us and yeah well i have to apologize to this teacher mr.sim. well i thought he was some dudes dad or looked like one of'em chee-ko-pek construction workers that like to sit down at coffee shops and look at other people! ah!... to hell with that! anyways, i didn't know he was a teacher and when he came in class every started applauding as we would have a free period.... welll again not knowing he was a teacher, i called him uncle the whole of the 1 period that he reliefed my class...uhuh! Well i felt really bad but hey! my bad! i didn't know he was teaching in the first place... yeah he dressed like a construction worker too!blah! Well after school eh.... my form teacher asked the whole class to stay back due to the late comers.... THANKS ALOT!blah! well anways after that i had some scould meetin and it finished at about 2:20... well jonita i'm sorry i could not meet ya today baby! i'm sorry! ARGH!.... well i really am sorry for not being able to meet you! blah! okie... well later i have some tution to go to... again! blah! maths its one and a half hour! yup yup! uhuh!
Well... i'm going to take a bath now and get ready for tution! blah!..... sorry again baby! see ya dudes soon i hope! take care... adios

Theres talk on the street it sounds so familiar
Great expectations, everybodys watching you
People you meet they all seem to know you
Even your own friends treat you like your something new...

well takecare! i'm sorry baby! see ya soon take care
bye pigs from venus
i'm out! blah!

lalalalalalala

2005-01-05T18:23:00.000-08:00

Okie pigs from venus

Ahh the taste of Cookie Crisps... yummm... blah! dooie! yeah thats what i had in the morning for breakfast! uhuh and it was good! Well i woke up to hear the sky pissing with rain.. eh... god?... i think ya forgot to turn off your tap! Anyways another day of studies arrgh! its pissing me off! blah! Well in school it was boring...dooie same old thing everyday gettin scolding from teachers all the time.. blah! anyways! school ended okie and after that i went to macs with myles, lionel, shawn, auji, farid, matthew, ryan, tim, augustin and stefen... blah! anyways i had lunch erm,,... the filet o fish thingy yeah and after lunch.. everyone left and so i left too! yeah i then got a call from jonita telling me that she herself was going to macs, and so there i was waiting for her at the bus stop! uhuh! well she came with he friend eevie and yeah after abit of hesitation of going to macs, ryan and i finally followed them to eat... at macs we met loads of other people... well at about 3 plus..
i went outside of macs to talk to barak, nick, kegan and ryan... yeah! and now i am in some brother love group like we help each other out and stuff but when its time to do really bad stuff i'm out of the group mates! uhuh! well after that i felt that there was something wrong within me and i began to question myslef about loads of things. time came by quick and i sent jonita and her friend back.. eh.. to the bus stop to be precise as i had some chinese tution thingy and yeah i'm sorry! Well ryan and i hitched a cab and we got into it... eh the driver was pretty nice i guess he was talking to us and laughing... arrgh! chinese! i dont like the subject yups... no one does i guess! blah!... ahhh! Well chinese today was kind of alright i guess yeah! and it is good for me too i suppose?
Well i got back home straight after chinese tution had finished and yeah i came online and had be bath! blah!do i smell nice to ya?... Well i then started talkin to a lot of people online and yeah today's an alright day for me i guess ... so far i mean!blah!Well i have to go eat me dinner soon yeah! uhuh!yups! going to have some jap food! yumm! well see ya later mates!!!!!!!

They say that anger is just love disappointed.
They say that love is just a state of mind,
but all this fighting over who will be anointed.
Oh how can people be so blind

Uhuh! see ya mate! takecare
i'm out!
blah!.....
lalalalalalala!

Peacful easy feeling

2005-01-04T02:00:00.000-08:00

Hey pigsters that read this so called diary thingy
Anyways today was a kind of alright day for me. yeah! well in the morning i woke up again but at 6:30am this time and yeah well i had a kind of alright sleep yeah lala land wasn't that peaceful yeah kinda noisy in there! blah! Well i took a bath and ate me break fast !sweet! i had cookies and milk again and yeah it tasted great plus i had a warm cup of milo that me dad had made for me!
Yeah well it was back to school and school was boring, why? whats the use of school? its cruelty to humans! dooie! and look the teachers there aren't good either they are worst than the school itself!haha! Well school is like some retard the dude that made school is ought to be shot!like me! retards should be shot too! and i'm prud to be one!
Anyways after school eh... i came home? and yeah i was waiting for lunch but i didn't get any! well i took a bath and did me work! darn! why do teachers give work anyway?SO yeah there i was doing my work when lynette called and then asked if jonita(my girl) , evie, mazin,nordiana and herself could come on over and i was like alright....! so then they came over and i felt so out of place its like i don't even know the 3 of'em and stuff plus i really felt awkward that i was the only guy in me house.Blah! okie, so i had a talk with jonita and boy her friends including lynette are just sick!ew! yuck!blah! arrgh! well not going to go there but yeah! especially lynette the sickness of that group! who cares she still a great friend to me!Dooie!
Alright then at about 5 everyone left me place leavin jonita behind! and yeah we talked more and stuff and had a super duper cadja frajalistic expialli doscious time! yeah it was sexy as i would say!
Well i walked jonita to hitch a cab and on our way we met ryan who had just came back from Tanpines mall, i was suppose to meet'em there but there were people over at me place so yeah! i'm sorry dude!
So yeah and now i'm just typing about what happened so far well dudes! i'll be back!

Graffiti decorations
Under a sky of dust
A constant wave of tension
On top of broken trust
The lessons that you taught me
I learn were never true
Now I find myself in question

Well to let ya know! for the record i have a really really bad life and yeah ask my friends or should i say family!

HIS LOVE ENDURES FOREVER!

well dudes gotta bounce
oh yeah! i'm going to ask you this really important question....

WANT SOME MILK AND COOKIES?

i'm out for now! blah! dooie!

Eh.... I think this is about today

2005-01-03T16:17:00.000-08:00

Blah!

Well first day of school was a drag i had to wake up really early at 6:30am and boy does it stink( like you) anyways well i took a bath and washed up! arrgh! i nearly fell down in the shower as i was still half dead and could barely open my eyes!blah!... oh well i went straight to me room and i realised i would be wearing long pants to school! haha! dude it was alright and i looked kind of funny but there are people who have told me like loads of times that i look good in long pants! and that i seriously do not think so! anyways! i went down to have my breakfast and i had cookies and milk! haha! it was yummy...mmm......okie dokie
Well i realised that my last year school shoes were to small as my feet have grown, now i look like some small ass with big feet! size 9! arrgh! well i went to my shoe trunk and took out some nike airforce(high cut) me bro matthew passed to me the year before!well even though it was all beat up and looked a million years old i didn't bother it was alright anyway can't blame 'em huh! he was nice enough to pass me it anyways!
So i got to school and saw heaps of new people! i realised the sec1 batch of year 2005 in st.pats looked like over grown toads you find in the frog farm! no kidding! all fat and ugly! blah! well i got into me class and i saw me teacher! blah! i nearly died on the spot apon lookin at'em! anyways school was really a drag and it was boring now that all me friends have changed class and stuff like that, how i wish it would be the same class as last year with the exact same form teacher that i had! but i can't expect much! dooie!
So once school ended i went to meet my friend and yeah i hanged abit in school and after that i went to siglap with myles, matthew, david, sean, lionel, francis, auji, lionel and ryan! well i left at about 2:15pm and went straight home to have my lunch and i had some clay pot rice thingy-mah-bobby with some black pepper beef and it was alright taste a wee bit weird but still edible!did not look good! it looked like what had came out of my behind the night before!
Well i then went to read my social studies book and studied the 1st chapter and about to finish the rest!
I'm hell beat and tired besides i have some 3hour tution on physics and chemistry later from 7:30pm till 10:30pm... blah!
Well sorry but i'm off to lala land! haha! and yeah if ya's plan on going there i have a free ticket! and the person that is giving out lala land tickets today is a toad with the face of elmo, the eyes of cookie monster, the mouth of big bird, the smell of oscar the grouch, has a huge mole on its butt and smells really funny!
come to think of it!.... it looks like you! blah!

Everyone feels so far away from me
Trying not to break but I’m so tired of this deceit
Every time I try to make myself get back up on my feet
All I ever think about is this
All the tiring time between
And how trying to put my trust in you just takes so much out of me

anyways later dudes! LALA LAND..... HERE I COME!
blah!
i'm out!

2005-01-02T23:50:00.001-08:00

eh... alright well i had like a small conversation with jonita and yeah things did not work out right! i don't know why. well i guess its because of me! And yeah i knew the worst would happen on that day...this feeling just came over me and i had to be prepared for the consequence! well the worst happened anyway she said the most dreded sentence i ever knew! and i was stunned. i knew she was drunk after hanging out and drinking amsterdam maxiimator 11.6 super forte which is much stronger and taste worst compared to amsterdam navigator 8.4 extra forte!
Anyways. we talked loads and tried to settle things! in the end she really regreted saying it and i was relief i thought it was all over but thank god he's great!!! wooot! HAIL JESUS YOUR MY KING! And now we are back and great!
Darn! i forgot i had school and it was kinda late.uhuh! so i talked to her and well everything was back to normal! and yeah things are alright i guess! anyways i forgot all about the school thingy and about packing my bag! so yeah!
i could not sleep the whole night as i was thinking of what had happened during this day! and yeah it really bothered me loads! its still stuck at the back of my mind!
Well jonita if you're reading this thing remember! your always going to be forgiven so you can save your sorries! and HOLD ON, NEVER LET GO!...blah!
Well i'd see you guys around soon! nites!
WATCH OUT FOR THE BOOGIE MAN!
Everything i know
And everywhere i go
It gets hard but it won't
Take away my love

When the last one falls
When its all said and done
It gets hard but it won't
take away my love

nite dudes!
i'm out! blah

Can't sleep

2005-01-02T23:50:00.000-08:00

Hey Pigs from hell!
eh... alright well i had like a small conversation with jonita and yeah things did not work out right! i don't know why. well i guess its because of me! And yeah i knew the worst would happen on that day...this feeling just came over me and i had to be prepared for the consequence! well the worst happened anyway she said the most dreded sentence i ever knew! and i was stunned. i knew she was drunk after hanging out and drinking amsterdam maxiimator 11.6 super forte which is much stronger and taste worst compared to amsterdam navigator 8.4 extra forte!
Anyways. we talked loads and tried to settle things! in the end she really regreted saying it and i was relief i thought it was all over but thank god he's great!!! wooot! HAIL JESUS YOUR MY KING! And now we are back and great!
Darn! i forgot i had school and it was kinda late.uhuh! so i talked to her and well everything was back to normal! and yeah things are alright i guess! anyways i forgot all about the school thingy and about packing my bag! so yeah!
i could not sleep the whole night as i was thinking of what had happened during this day! and yeah it really bothered me loads! its still stuck at the back of my mind!
Well jonita if you're reading this thing remember! your always going to be forgiven so you can save your sorries! and HOLD ON, NEVER LET GO!...blah!
Well i'd see you guys around soon! nites!
WATCH OUT FOR THE BOOGIE MAN!
Everything i know
And everywhere i go
It gets hard but it won't
Take away my love

When the last one falls
When its all said and done
It gets hard but it won't
take away my love

nite dudes!
i'm out! blah

Turned out bad

2005-01-02T19:53:00.001-08:00

Hey dudes. Well today uhm... Its a sunday and i woke up late for mass at about 10:45am and mass starts at 11am yeah well. i got out of my bed, took a bath and changed and got ready for mass.oh i immediately called jonita(my love) to give her a wake yup call, and she was awake. i was so excited about mass as i would get to see her, but news came and it hit me in the head like a brick(ouch) she could not sit with the group... how disappointed i was but nevermind i would still see her and hug her anyways. oh well i left me house at about... 11:20am already late for mass... DOOIE! anyways when i got to church i went straight to where all me friends were seated there were: lynette, trina, matthew, aggassiz, and ryan all seated in the same row of seats in church made of wood( eh... i dont know what you call that place, oh yeah it has those slidable kneeling thingys) anyways father was really slow at his speech well we cant blame'em right besides he's old and yeah he can't speak pretty good but hey he did his job, one thing about mass is that i do not understand why we must like read the book that they give us, i mean its just like a story book to pass time in mass anyway like some mother goose story but this is a different version.
After we went for lunch at parkway. oh yeah it rained like hell i guess got was probably showering or somethin and yeah it rained throughout the whole day. anyway we had to walk in the rain but there were lucky people who had umbrella's with'em and yeah some of me buddies had a lift by 'em and yeah i did not get one!blah! well thank god i ad a hoodie thingy and i used it well. yup! as we reached parkway we decided to go have lunch, all of us went to macs and while ryan and i were gettin our meals our buddies busted us! arrgh! anways we still had a peaceful lunch. after that i went to buy this game for me big bro and its ex!!!! it cost $95 smackeroos and dude it ripped my wallet in half! anyways we met the group at Yoshinoya and there we met a few other people like allison, amanda and peddie(sorry if i did not get it right) oh well and we had lunch. allison dropped her drink and it went all over the place. it made the floor slippery. well this lady had to clear it up of course and she brought the wet floor sign. knowing my clumsiness , while gettin aunt annie's i kicked the sign down accidentally and got aggassiz into trouble haha! deserve it! anways after eatin i realised i was late and i had to hurry back to the prison for kids ( my house) yeah! anyways i kicked the sign that indicated that the floor was wet again and i nearly fell down onto the floor( dumb cleaner doesn't know how to clean) anways ryan and i then went and left the people behind...
We got on a cab and then all hell broke loose my mom called and started naggin non stop i nearly died then but i did not... so yeah . the cab fare was $5.00 and ryan paid for it as i told him i did not want to pay! anyways when i got home more Sh** happened arrgh! today was really bad it stinked!blah! oh well i talked to melanie and jonita on the phone today and yeah! this was my day! oh darn! schools gonna start and it really stinks i don't get me sleep anymore!!!! why?!.... blah!.... oh well

If i die before i wake,
I pray the lord my soul to take.
If i wake before i die,
Rescue me with your smile.

why does my life stink? Somebody tell me.....
Is somebody out there? Will somebody listen?

i'm out!

2005-01-02T19:53:00.000-08:00